This Crazy Life

We are going home!  8.5 weeks in PHP at ERC Dallas and we are going home.  But she’s going to stay in treatment.  She’s upset.  She was here as long as Veritas and she didn’t have to stay in treatment.  Yes, but look how that worked out for us.  She’s going to start treatment at the McCallum Place.  Our outpatient team does not recommend them, but I’ve talked to parents with positive stories, and I really think she needs a change.  They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  I feel like we are there.  She doesn’t like her team; she says she’s doing things just to spite her team.  She doesn’t want to get better.  They’ve given her a cookie cake for afternoon snack for 2 weeks now.  And she hasn’t taken a single bite.  She asked me last night what do you think they’ll say when they see I was right.  I said right?  Yes, I told them I was not going to eat the cookie cake no matter what they did, really makes me want to shove it in her face.  Make her see that she can eat it and nothing bad will happen.  Sweets are off limits.  Eating out or fast food is off limits.  Still so many rules.  I wish I could help her break free of them.  But hopefully a longer PHP stay this time will give her brain more food for longer and we can finally see some results.  And I get to be home.  And she gets to sleep in her own bed.  So many positives.  And if it doesn’t work.  We’ll move on to the next plan.  But for now, I’m going to be happy to go home and hug my husband and my other girls and my dogs.  She’s happy to go home to see her animals.  If only she would want to stay there and understand she has to eat to make that happen!