This Crazy Life

We are leaving for a cruise in just over a week.  We’ll be on the ship for 7 nights.  SEVEN!  She’s excited.  I’m not really sure how I’m feeling.  I don’t think I’m nervous or excited.  More stressed.  Stressed that everyone will have fun and nothing will go wrong.  I always plan these things.  There…

This blog is all over the place anymore.  It’s kind of like a therapy journal for me at this point.  I’m currently at a work conference.  One I willingly signed up for. And you know how that goes when you’re a total introvert.  You do something you wish you could do and think you should…

I never thought I would ever see the day she would eat something not on her self-imposed meal plan.  Prepackaged.  Preweighed.  Prepared food that all met very specific caloric and nutritional guidelines.  But I got a video the other day from her twin.  Of her taking a bite out of a Starbucks cake pop.  A…

How long can you fake something before it even comes reality or it breaks you?  Like really breaks you.  I think that’s a lot of my problem right now.  I’m trying so hard in every aspect of my life, trying to “make” what I want my life to be.  And I’m just failing at it…

I don’t think anyone can possibly understand how hard I try every day.  How hard I try to make everything work.  How hard I try to make everyone and everything as successful as I can.  How hard I try just to get out of bed in the morning.  I think that is why I’m so…

I’m sure you’ve all heard the saying before.  Little kids, little problems.  Big kids, big problems.  If that isn’t true, I don’t know what is.  Aside from your little kid having some serious physical or mental health issues, as in an extremely severe eating disorder, most little kid problems really aren’t that big of deal. …

What do you do when you realize you’ve completely failed your kids as a parent.  You’ve set them up for complete failure to succeed in the real world.  That’s where I’m at.  Especially with one of my daughters.  But really with all of them to some degree.  I have one daughter struggling to go to…

My oldest is a high school senior.  She’s going to graduate in just a few short months.  I feel like I should be doing more, checking in with her more, making sure she has everything ready, is enrolled in college, check when she’ll sign up for classes.  But she doesn’t want to grow up, she…

She’s had two or three sleepovers with her twin sister.  And all just in this last week.  She’s stayed up in our house after she gets home from work.  She’s bought dinner with her at work and brought it home.  But since she’s already “dirty” from work she just stays dirty and sleeps up here. …

It’s a new year and 2026 is going to be my year.  I have big goals, big dreams and a lot of things I want to accomplish.  I started off the year sick.  We returned from vacation on 12/31 and I got the flu.  Hard.  I think I’m just finally back to life with full…