This Crazy Life

This has been on my mind a lot.  When do I get a break.  When do I get to say I’m ok with her being not ok.  Is that possible?  As a mom?  Do you ever get to sit back and say I’m ok with my daughter being severely sick with anorexia?  The other eating disorder mom’s I’ve connected closely with have kids that got better.  I won’t say easily because nothing is easy about this disease.  But their journey with an eating disorder was definitely different than mine.  So, they never needed a chance to say I am ok with that, and that’s ok.  But when can you do that.  When can you say my child is sick, she’s not getting better and that’s ok.  I don’t have to keep worrying about what I’m doing wrong.  What I should be doing differently.   I can just breathe and enjoy life again.  Go to work.  Do things with my other kids.  I’m not there yet.  But I think I need to be.  Even for a month or two.  I just need everything to be ok.  So, if anyone has any secrets on how to do that, please let me know.  I am all ears!