This Crazy Life

We had our first family therapy at Clementine.  They are trying to help her see a life without her eating disorder.  Help her find herself.  Discover who she is.  They started with wanting her to imagine a happy day.  Is your eating disorder there.  Yes.  Of course.  Then we went 10 years in the future.  She would be done with school.  She wants to be a nurse.  Is your eating disorder still there?  Yes.  Do you think you’ll still be around in 10 years if you have your eating disorder?  Shoulder shrug.  Do you know it would be hard to have a job with an eating disorder?  Shoulder shrug.  I like they are already making her think.  Making her envision her life.  This is different.  But they also understand that at this point she can’t imagine any life without her eating disorder.  Which is depressing to hear, but I know it’s her reality.   I so wanted to say you would want your cake and to eat it too.  Which really what is the other point of cake so I never understand that saying.  But she wants to be happy and have a life.  With her eating disorder.  The eating disorder that keeps her from eating and drinking and staying alive.