This Crazy Life

Often the new year brings a lot of diet and weight loss and exercise resolutions.  But this year, I’ve seen a lot more “happy” resolutions.  One tik toker is going to pet 100 cats this year.  Another one is going to say no more.  I’ve seen a lot of ins and outs for 2024 with a lot of outs being restrictive dieting and exercise as punishment.  Ins have included body positivity.  Maybe as a whole we are moving away from diet culture (slowly, but hey even baby steps count!).  Or maybe I’ve just blocked and deleted all the people that think “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”.  Either way, I’ll take it.  My resolutions, actually I didn’t make any resolutions.  I have goals for the year.  Some of my goals are learning Spanish and reading more.  Doing less of what I don’t love and spending more time with the people and things I do love.  Will 2024 be the year we beat Anorexia.  Probably not.  Am I still determined to make it my best year yet, absolutely!  I have been working on finding a balance between taking care of myself, my husband and my other children all while working on defeating the monster that is ED.  Is it exhausting at times.  Yes.  Do I give myself breaks, also yes.  Will I feel defeated and like I’m not good enough.  I’m sure I will.  But then I’ll regroup and keep on keeping on.  2024 is going to be a good year.  I can feel it.