This Crazy Life

A year and a half ago I did a comparison post between Veritas and ERC Dallas.  Veritas won hands down.  There were so many things I didn’t like about ERC Dallas.  Because of that I was nervous going to ERC Denver.  On the message boards ERC Dallas and usually recommended as the place of choice for the younger kids.  However, I would recommend ERC Denver hands down.  I’ve had such a positive experience.  My daughter hates it.  Most of the time.  Which also is a good sign it’s working.  Her dietician has stayed the course and has refused to give in to any of her requests.  Which makes my daughter very upset, but I love it.  She has thick skin and knows the anger is from the ED and not to take it personal (which we’ve had problems with before).  Even though I haven’t talked to the doctor/psychiatrist once this entire time other than the first day when I met the team my daughter likes him and is comfortable with him and I think he’s doing a great job working with her.  Her therapist has been wonderful.  She’s poking and prodding and trying to make her think.  She’s not giving up.  She knows she has a lot of work to do.  She knows the ED is still strong.  She knows she’s still so tangled up in it.  But she’s trying.  She hasn’t given up.  She knows how to push the buttons and then when to lay off so she doesn’t just shut down.  She’s also been here longer than she’s been anywhere else.  She’s been in treatment for just over 6 months last June to December.  But she was only in residential 6 weeks of that time.  She’s been in residential now for just over 11 weeks.  It’s hard.  For her.  For me.  Treatment fatigue is real.  I would love to have her home.  But I remind myself every day with food is one day less that I don’t have to worry about her eating.  Now if only we could get her to shift to wanting recovery so she would help the fight too.  That would be amazing!  A dream for another day I guess.