This Crazy Life

We’re discharging tomorrow.  It was between that or stepping her back up to residential.  Which I don’t think will solve anything either.  She can’t stay here forever.  Unfortunately.  She fought hard about going to php today.  She’s not eating enough.  She’s already having fears about food being contaminated.  I have no idea how this will ever work at home, but our next plan is to come back out for php.  Hopefully before she needs the hospital or residential again.  We’ll come out and do a few weeks of php.  Then try home again.  I don’t know that it’s a good plan.  But I guess it’s a plan nonetheless.  And I am stressed.  A lot.  Which I need to work on controlling.  That is something I can control.  My stress.  And my reactions and how I interact not only w/ her but my husband and her siblings too.  I’m going to try to do better than I’ve done before.  I guess that’s my goal, not to let all this stress get to me.  I’m going to take her twin sister to her cheer competition this weekend.  Is it the best decision.  Probably not.  But she needs me too.