This Crazy Life

We got home from the hospital Tuesday.  Wednesday, she threw away all the food she had at home, and we went grocery shopping for the food she eats, shrimp, crackers, spreadable cheese and eggs.  She told me Wednesday that since she didn’t eat any shrimp for lunch, she had 3 eggs for dinner and 10 crackers instead of 9.  Since then, she’s only been eating cheese and crackers as it’s just too much to cook.  She told me we would need to go get cheese and crackers before next week since she’s been eating just them, she’s eating more.  Ok.  Fine.  No big deal.  Saturday, I asked my mom to check how many eggs she had left.  So, she did while she was in the shower.  The entire carton of eggs was full.  I asked her to check to see how many cheese wedges she had used and if the bag of shrimp was open.  She couldn’t do it as she was nervous about getting caught.  Sunday she was in the freezer and saw the bag of shrimp was still sealed.  Today all the family went to the in-laws for Memorial Day.  She thought this would be a good time to go to Walmart to get more cheese and crackers since no one would be home.  I thought perfect, I’ll have my mom check the cheese this time.  No, she wanted Mimi to go with us just so she wouldn’t have to be paranoid.  Ok, fine.  I called my sister and asked her to come to the house and check the cheese while we were gone.  She did.  Both packages of cheese we bought last Wednesday that she’s supposedly been eating more of, still sealed.  Not even opened.  She’s eaten none of them.  None.  So I don’t think she’s eaten since she left the hospital.  She’s wearing ankle weights and lying.  She’s not eating and lying.  I hate this freaking eating disorder.  I just have to wait until Wednesday and then it changes.  All bets are off.  I’m taking over and if that doesn’t work then I don’t know what we’ll do next.  Because lets me honest, I don’t expect it to work.