This Crazy Life

I was sure we’d go back to the hospital on Monday.  Positive.  She’s not eating what we think she needs to eat, but she is eating a bit more than when we went to the hospital.  But we didn’t.  We are home.  For another 2 weeks.  Which is huge to me.  Obviously if things change, we’ll go in sooner.  But we’re home.  Which is where I prefer to be.  But I have another problem.  How do you deal when another teenage daughter is unhappy with her body?  She sees all of her friends taking weight loss medication, how or why I don’t know, and that’s a completely different topic, and she knows we aren’t doing that.  She also knows it’s not safe and she knows what can happen b/c she’s witnessed the absolute worst in her sister.  She knows we will do everything in our power to prevent that happening to another one of our girls.  But man is it hard.  To acknowledge her feelings and try to help her.  She says she compares herself to everyone constantly.  Constant voices in her head telling her she’s not good enough.  And then when she spirals is when she picks out her eyelashes.  I’m going to try to get her into a psychiatrist.  I think maybe some medication and then some therapy will help?  She doesn’t want to try therapy again.  She feels like they are judging her.  But maybe w/ some medication first she won’t feel like that.  I just know I need to help her now, before it gets worse.