This Crazy Life

How do you know how to describe the emotions you’re feeling.  I certainly don’t know enough emotion words.  At one treatment center they had an emotion wheel I liked.  It started off with the simple emotions then had a more specific list from that.  I think it had 3 off sets.  Then a therapist I…

We’re down 4 pounds.  In a week.  I should not find it shocking.  Or disheartening.  But it is.  Very.  To both.  She of course does not think it’s any big deal.  She needs to know what she weighs because her plan is to lose weight to a level she’s happy with.  Then she’ll stop and…

We may have a period.  It sounds like a crazy thing to get excited about, but at 14.5 years old it’s long past time.  It also is an amazing data point for me, that her body can have a period at this weight.  Now I just need to find out what this weight is.  But…

We’ve been home for almost a week.  She’s still alive.  So I guess that is promising.  I have no idea what she’s eating.  I’m really struggling with taking on this battle.  I’m exhausted.  I’m tired.  I’m burnt out.  I don’t know how I am supposed to fight every meal and snack 6 times a day. …

We’re discharging tomorrow.  It was between that or stepping her back up to residential.  Which I don’t think will solve anything either.  She can’t stay here forever.  Unfortunately.  She fought hard about going to php today.  She’s not eating enough.  She’s already having fears about food being contaminated.  I have no idea how this will…

Thursday they wanted to move her back to residential.  She had eaten less than 1000 calories total for the last 3 days.  She was starting to decline.  I told them, let’s give her a final chance at expectations.  Her therapist met with her that afternoon and told her if she wasn’t completing 100% at php…

PHP has been a disaster already.  She’s not eating.  She’s refusing supplement.  She now has supplement following her and is sitting in “sit” while she’s in programming.  She’s eating at home.  Kind of.  Only what she’ll eat and not enough.  She won’t eat anything from me.  She’s already concerned about oil being added to food. …

Once again, I’m preparing to pick up my life and move it so I can supervise her during PHP.  A big difference this time is I told them I could only do 2 weeks.  It’s going to end up being about 2.5, but close enough.   If she was in a better mindset or if I…

A year and a half ago I did a comparison post between Veritas and ERC Dallas.  Veritas won hands down.  There were so many things I didn’t like about ERC Dallas.  Because of that I was nervous going to ERC Denver.  On the message boards ERC Dallas and usually recommended as the place of choice…