Category: Hospital
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Food That Hasn’t Been Eaten
We got home from the hospital Tuesday. Wednesday, she threw away all the food she had at home, and we went grocery shopping for the food she eats, shrimp, crackers, spreadable cheese and eggs. She told me Wednesday that since she didn’t eat any shrimp for lunch, she had 3 eggs for dinner and 10…
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OCD and CDiff
They’ve labeled her as OCD before. I’ve disagreed. We had a psych assessment done in November of 2022 and he did not find any OCD. When she was most recently in ERC Denver they tested “extensively” two separate times and did not find any evidence of OCD, only anorexia. This has always been my opinion,…
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Long Time No Talk
It’s been a while. I haven’t really had many feelings (maybe the new meds are working too good). We are in the same place. She’s struggling. The fear of food is intense. She wanted me to help her strip her bed earlier this week so she could wash her sheets. I can touch dirty laundry. …
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Cleaning
Yesterday was a hard day. Her knuckles cracked in the night and got blood on her sheets. So now she needed to wash her sheets and she didn’t have time. It was late when she got in bed the night before because she just has too many things to do. The only things she is…
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Broken Record
I feel like a broken record. Or I’m reliving Groundhog’s Day over and over again. She’s eating. She’s not eating enough. No one else really seems to care about that. And I don’t know how much to push for fear of pushing too far and her stopping eating all together. Yesterday we had an apt…
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Hangers
I’ve mentioned her paranoia is increasing. This has always gone hand in hand w/ weight decreasing and the eating disorder getting even stronger. She asked me yesterday when I was going to the store again because she needed more hangers. I said well I have tons of extra hangers (I’ve just finished cleaning out my…
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Maintaining
Wednesday her doctor told her she had maintained. She told her to keep doing what she was doing. I left the appointment feeling good. She hadn’t lost more. She brought it up on her own. I was feeling good until I got home and actually counted the calories that I know she’s consuming and came…
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First Increase
So last Wednesday we saw the doctor. She pretty much said she should send her back to treatment based on how much weight she’s lost since discharge, but she was going to give her a week to maintain and show us she could do it. I knew she had been restricting. I didn’t know how…
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Nervous
Tomorrow we see the doctor. It’s been almost two and a half weeks. I’m nervous and stressed. I know if she’s lost weight again she’s going to start talking about treatment. But I don’t want to do treatment again. Not this soon. She says she’s eating. I have zero idea what or how much. She’s…
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Anger. Depression. Despair.
How do you know how to describe the emotions you’re feeling. I certainly don’t know enough emotion words. At one treatment center they had an emotion wheel I liked. It started off with the simple emotions then had a more specific list from that. I think it had 3 off sets. Then a therapist I…
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