Tag: Twins
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Exposures
So, we’ve met w/ a new OCD team twice 4 times now. Last time we started thinking of exposures we could work on. This week I sat in on the call. Let me tell you. It’s a lot. It’s depressing. And overwhelming. And I have no idea how we are ever going to get to…
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Stubborn
Stubborn is an understatement. She went to the hospital this last time. Well back up. She was on a feeding tube, continuous pump getting 3500 calories of ensure. Allegedly. At her doctor apt on Monday her heart rate was up, her blood pressure was low, and she had lost 3 pounds. She had been having…
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What Do You Do?
What do you do when nothing works. When she’s trying harder than she’s ever tried but it’s just not enough. When you can’t stay out of the hospital. When the OCD is so bad. When you don’t see how a different residential would help as you’ve done it 4 times. Honestly just keeping her alive…
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5th Hospital Stay
We’re on our fifth stay since the middle of May. It’s literally been a week in, a week out, a week in, a week out, 2 weeks in, a week out, a week in, less than a week out, and now we’ve been in for 3 days. We’ve gone from food to a feeding tube…
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Food That Hasn’t Been Eaten
We got home from the hospital Tuesday. Wednesday, she threw away all the food she had at home, and we went grocery shopping for the food she eats, shrimp, crackers, spreadable cheese and eggs. She told me Wednesday that since she didn’t eat any shrimp for lunch, she had 3 eggs for dinner and 10…
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OCD and CDiff
They’ve labeled her as OCD before. I’ve disagreed. We had a psych assessment done in November of 2022 and he did not find any OCD. When she was most recently in ERC Denver they tested “extensively” two separate times and did not find any evidence of OCD, only anorexia. This has always been my opinion,…
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Long Time No Talk
It’s been a while. I haven’t really had many feelings (maybe the new meds are working too good). We are in the same place. She’s struggling. The fear of food is intense. She wanted me to help her strip her bed earlier this week so she could wash her sheets. I can touch dirty laundry. …
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Cleaning
Yesterday was a hard day. Her knuckles cracked in the night and got blood on her sheets. So now she needed to wash her sheets and she didn’t have time. It was late when she got in bed the night before because she just has too many things to do. The only things she is…
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Broken Record
I feel like a broken record. Or I’m reliving Groundhog’s Day over and over again. She’s eating. She’s not eating enough. No one else really seems to care about that. And I don’t know how much to push for fear of pushing too far and her stopping eating all together. Yesterday we had an apt…
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Hangers
I’ve mentioned her paranoia is increasing. This has always gone hand in hand w/ weight decreasing and the eating disorder getting even stronger. She asked me yesterday when I was going to the store again because she needed more hangers. I said well I have tons of extra hangers (I’ve just finished cleaning out my…
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