This Crazy Life

How long can you fake something before it even comes reality or it breaks you?  Like really breaks you.  I think that’s a lot of my problem right now.  I’m trying so hard in every aspect of my life, trying to “make” what I want my life to be.  And I’m just failing at it all.  It really hard to be a good wife, a good mom, a good daughter/sister/friend, a good boss.  All at the same time.  You don’t want to let anyone down.  You want to please everyone.  You want to make everyone happy and ever circumstance the absolute best it can be.  This weekend I went out Friday night for our every other Friday night date night.  Then we turned around and went out Saturday night with friends.  Then one of our nieces had a birthday party Sunday afternoon.  I did not go to that.  I couldn’t.  I was done.  I’m already dreading this weekend as well.  We have a symphony Thursday night and an office outing Friday night and my kids then want to go to dinner Saturday night.  It’s already making me want to crawl into bed and sleep for hours and not come out.  But I’ll do it.  I’ll do it all.  Because I can’t let anyone down.  And I’m not even the oldest daughter, though I’ve always played that role.  So moms how to you handle everything without letting anyone down somewhere?