This Crazy Life

This summer has been crazy busy.  Vacations.  Concerts.  Life.  I’m not even sure what all I’ve done and I haven’t slowed down long enough to think about it.  These last two weeks in September I still have work trips to Cincinnati and Washington DC and then we’re adding on some fun in Washington DC.  The girls will come out the end of the week to join me and we’re going to go see Olivia Rodridgo in concert.  My sick daughter is mad at me.  She does not want to fly.  She wants to drive.  Alone.  The 20+ hour drive.  Her dad said absolutely not.  So then she got the idea of a train.  Which is about a 28-34 hour trip.  Depending on if it’s the way there or back.  Which one, we have no experience with trains, and two, she’s 17, the size of a 12 year old, traveling alone.  It just doesn’t sit well with me.  So I told her she needs to fly or someone has to go with her.  So she’s mad.  And she won’t even talk to me about it.  But I’m going and I’m going to have fun.  I know it sucks that she is sick.  But maybe at some point she’ll want recovery bad enough that she’ll be able to commit and go all in and actually beat this horrible disease.  I’ve offered her more therapy, medication, more treatment, etc any time she wants it.  She does not want any of it.  So the offer is there and I will continue to offer and I will continue to push.  And I will continue to allow her to do things that we both are comfortable with.  And maybe someday she’ll be ready.  Back to forced relaxation.  After a whirlwind of a summer, I get to take a break.  October 6^th I’m having a hysterectomy.  I get back from Cinci on the 23^rd and have my preop testing on the 24^th (where they are going to run my iron numbers again since I asked – go me!) and then I get back from DC on the 4^th and I have my surgery on the 6^th.  I know it’s not going to be a walk in the park.  But I do think it will force me to slow down.  Rest.  Read.  Get caught up on life thinking.  So in a way I’m looking forward to it.  I’m also looking forward to hopefully my iron levels coming back up and getting some energy back.  So we shall see!