Author: crazylife2022
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I’m Not OK
Reading my last post I was in a good spot. I’m currently not. How was that last post only a weekish ago. How things can change and go south fast. Nothing has really changed other than my mind set. It hit me this weekend that how is it possible that 10 years old would be…
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New Year – new goals and new mindsets
Often the new year brings a lot of diet and weight loss and exercise resolutions. But this year, I’ve seen a lot more “happy” resolutions. One tik toker is going to pet 100 cats this year. Another one is going to say no more. I’ve seen a lot of ins and outs for 2024 with…
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First Vacation Without Her
We just got back from our first planned vacation without her. She didn’t go to Montana with us in July as she was in residential, but she had an airplane ticket and reservations to go. This trip. She didn’t have any of that. You know it was a hard thing to do, but in all…
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Still Inpatient
She’s still inpatient. We’re in her sixth week. She’s getting antsy, she’s gaining weight and she’s stuck. This is where it starts to get hard so we’ll see how she does, if she can break through or back down. She really wanted to move to residential so she could leave the unit with her dad…
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Sick
I know a big fear of caregivers to someone with an active ED is a stomach bug. How do you deal with them being sick but keeping them fed. Well we found out this weekend. She started being sick 3am Saturday morning. By Sunday morning she could not keep anything down. They gave her iv…
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Unknown Calories
So of course, I’ve been thinking. I mean what else would I do when I’m trying to turn off my brain and fall asleep. Her current psychologist has talked to her quite a bit about doing an oil exposure. But she doesn’t think it will really help anything and I really don’t disagree. She doesn’t…
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Safe and Acceptance
I’m doing ok. Well I was doing ok. When I titled this and started writing. Now, I’m not really sure. My thoughts were just confirmed. She’ll be in residential for Christmas. While really I knew that was the reality, until someone told me that is more than likely the case I think I was pretending…
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First Visit
I went to visit her Saturday. It actually went pretty good. She seems in better spirits than in times past. But it’s also just the first week. And she also knows she won’t be there forever. So, I’m sure both of those things help. But I’m going to take it. Maybe she’ll stay positive the…
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She’s Admitted
I got her admitted to ERC Denver Thursday. They admitted her at the inpatient level as it had been over a week since she had any food (or water, but we did take her fluids Monday night/Tuesday morning so she would be safe to get to ERC). They have a 72-hour blackout period, so I…
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Residential Round 4
She’s going to admit Thursday. I hope I can keep her stable until Thursday. She is not good. Her oil paranoia is so, so, so awful right now. She can’t do anything. She can’t leave her room. She’s going through a bottle of soap a day. She can’t do this anymore, she told me last…
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