This Crazy Life

We made it home from 8+ weeks in PHP round 2.  And the restriction started immediately.  One time was “my fault” as she was eating lunch and said she was eating like a pig.  I told her she was not eating like a pig she was eating like a person that wanted her life back. …

We are going home!  8.5 weeks in PHP at ERC Dallas and we are going home.  But she’s going to stay in treatment.  She’s upset.  She was here as long as Veritas and she didn’t have to stay in treatment.  Yes, but look how that worked out for us.  She’s going to start treatment at…

It’s weird.  Or maybe not.  But I do a lot of thinking and dreaming and imagining when I’m sitting in a hotel room alone for hours.  There is only so much you can do a day and there is lots of “free” time no matter what you do.  I often think about where I went…

She’s (I started by saying we, it feels like I’m right there with her, but I am not) been on the same meds since early January.  We’ve increased dosages but haven’t played with anything else since April.  100mg of Zoloft.  25 mg of Hydroxyzine 3 times a day.  5 mg of Zyprexa.  It’s obviously not…

Birthdays are hard.  I think all holidays are probably hard, but yesterday was her birthday so that’s fresh in my mind.  First, she was upset she didn’t get a pass on her birthday.  The pass 2 days before did not go the best, so it makes sense to me they didn’t think a pass was…

Today she had her first day off from PHP.  This was to see how she would cope with eating at home.  She was also supposed to stay out of the kitchen while I prepared meals and snacks.  I knew this was going to be hard for her eating disorder as it likes to be in…

Vacations have always been our thing.  I love to go, I love to see, I love to do.  The girls have definitely been bitten by the travel bug as well.  However, the past 18 months it has been impossible to travel thanks to an eating disorder.  We have finally made progress the past 3ish month…

If you have never been grocery shopping with someone with an active eating disorder, consider yourself lucky.  I had to take my daughter Sunday.  I try to avoid this like the plague.  But she left programming early because she didn’t feel good, so she had to eat dinner at our hotel and I was unprepared…

I’ve read a lot.  People say regularly a bad facility can make the ED worse.  ERC, Dallas, is supposed to be one of the best.  However, it all makes a difference who your team is.  Our team is very, very, very new.  And inexperienced.  Our dietician this week tried to make her AM snack fruit. …

In our Family Therapy Session Wednesday, they told me they want to make Level One as boring as possible.  They are seeing an increase in ED behaviors since stepping down to PHP.  First let me explain their level system.  ERC has 3 levels.  Each level you get an increase in privileges.  Some people make it…