This Crazy Life

We’ve made it one and a half weeks at home!  It may not sound like much, but it’s a record since the middle of May when this cycle of in and out of the hospital started.  And she’s eating.  And she’s stable.  And we’ll be home for at least another week.  Well unless she just…

So, we’ve met w/ a new OCD team twice 4 times now.  Last time we started thinking of exposures we could work on.  This week I sat in on the call.  Let me tell you.  It’s a lot.  It’s depressing.  And overwhelming.  And I have no idea how we are ever going to get to…

Stubborn is an understatement.  She went to the hospital this last time.  Well back up.  She was on a feeding tube, continuous pump getting 3500 calories of ensure.  Allegedly.  At her doctor apt on Monday her heart rate was up, her blood pressure was low, and she had lost 3 pounds.  She had been having…

What do you do when nothing works.  When she’s trying harder than she’s ever tried but it’s just not enough.  When you can’t stay out of the hospital.  When the OCD is so bad.  When you don’t see how a different residential would help as you’ve done it 4 times.  Honestly just keeping her alive…

We’re on our fifth stay since the middle of May.  It’s literally been a week in, a week out, a week in, a week out, 2 weeks in, a week out, a week in, less than a week out, and now we’ve been in for 3 days.  We’ve gone from food to a feeding tube…

We got home from the hospital Tuesday.  Wednesday, she threw away all the food she had at home, and we went grocery shopping for the food she eats, shrimp, crackers, spreadable cheese and eggs.  She told me Wednesday that since she didn’t eat any shrimp for lunch, she had 3 eggs for dinner and 10…