Tag: Identical
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Oil
The oil is back. And it’s everywhere. She knows she’s gaining weight. She knows she’s eating more than she’s supposed to. She knows we’re putting oil on her in her sleep. She can’t sleep because she doesn’t have enough ways to protect herself from the oil. It’s like I’m stuck in this world of make…
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Lucky Number 13 and I’ve Lost her Again
Hospital stay #13 just happened. It was a snowball of restriction I couldn’t stop. I knew it was coming. I knew the ED thoughts were taking over. I didn’t realize how much she was restricting. And then it all stopped and she couldn’t eat or drink anymore. She had to lose weight. She had to…
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Roller Coaster
I feel like we are on a roller coaster and I need to get off. I’m working really hard to stay grounded and not ride the ride with her, but damn is it hard. Monday we had an ok day at the doctor. She ate. Not enough, but she ate. She maintained her weight. We’re…
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The Hard Truth About Recovery
I always said that once she wanted to recover it was still going to be a struggle. I know this. I’ve always known this. But knowing it and living through it are 2 different things. She’s really struggling. I’m really struggling. I don’t know how to help. She’s convinced we are messing with her food…
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Two Weeks at School
She’s been in school for 2 weeks. 2 entire weeks. Somedays have been better than others. In fact one day was pretty downright ugly. But we’re making it. We fried some fish for dinner one night this week. She of course didn’t eat it, but then that stopped her ability to walk into the kitchen. …
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One Month
We discharged from Clementine on 8/18. It’s been one month. She’s within 2.5 pounds of her discharge weight. Including the week + that she was at PHP and not eating at all. She’s still eating. She’s in school. She’s communicating with people. I am still very cautiously optimistic and I refuse to celebrate too much. …
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She’s at School
I dropped her off at school today. A new school. Starting 8th grade. I’m so nervous. But so excited at the same time. This is a big step. A step in hopefully the right direction. We went to the doctor yesterday and she was so positive. She could see such a big change in her…
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Week 1ish Down
She’s been home for just over a week. She’s been eating. Not enough in my opinion, but she’s eating. And she’s doing life. And she’s trying to be a person. Which is huge in my opinion. But I was really afraid weight would be down today. I just knew it would be actually. And that…
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Sister Not Supporting Recovery
This is big in my house right now. Her sister. Her twin sister, is not even trying to support her recovery. In fact, in my opinion, she’s jeopardizing it, even if not fully intentional. She is trying to get better. She’s talking about going back to school. Her sister doesn’t want her at school. Everyone…
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Baby Steps
I’m documenting so I can go back and read this. And see the progress we’ve made. She found a couple of baby kittens on our driveway the other day. We could not find a momma cat anywhere. These kittens were maybe 1 or 2 days old. They were little. She’s now, with the help of…
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